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2:28 am- Wake up.
    2:29 am- Find that damn paper you misplaced.
    2:33 am- Grab the pen.
    2:34 am- Write your heart out.
    2:48 am- Re-read what you wrote.
    2:51 am- Go to your safe place.
    2:53 am- Cry as you remember all of the pain. All of the hurt-- everything.
    2:58 am- Get ready
    3:00 am- End it all.
    
    The end. So many times we argue about how the end must have heaven or hell, whether it will ever actually end with the light or just be dark. But some are quicker than others to reach that destination. They think about it--no, they're possessed by it. The light of the world is dim, and the after-life is so... pleasing. Death; that is their escape. The safe haven that they long for! It will end the pain, the suffering-- the hate. If they do the deed then--then they'll make it! And if they don't? They go to hell on Earth.
    
    Rated Mature for language and themes.
  
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