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I Used To Be

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When Anna is accepted into the prestigious Virginia Academy of Ballet, it looks like all of her dreams are going to come true.  Anna's dance training, however, is complicated by the fact that she is struggling desperately to survive being a person she doesn't want to be.  The one thing she is clear about is that she wants to be the perfect, thin ballet dancer.  The more weight she loses, the less she cares about anything else, and that's just the way she wants it. This, she finds, is a much more attainable goal than the other, especially when she meets Isabelle. 
            Isabelle Knight, a young ballet teacher and former professional ballet dancer, causes Anna's entire conception of herself to unravel, as does her physical and mental health.  Meanwhile, Anna's situation at home with her alcoholic father, provides a constant trigger for her increasingly self-destructive behavior.All Rights Reserved

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It's Ada(m) and Eve, not Adam and Steve

18-year-old Ada had a tough life. Always lying about who she really is, always hiding behind a mask, until she couldn't do it anymore. But telling her Parents destroyed her life. She got kicked out at the age of 16 and had to live on the streets. Thanks to her Basketball skills she got a scholarship at Knight High school. A weird private school where every kid has a special talent. From art over music to sports, if you're really good at what you're doing you can go to Knight High. Students come and go, so it's not really surprising when three dancers came to the school after thanksgiving break. Eve, one of these girls, always knew she's gay, she has a great girlfriend, at least she thought that for the last six months. When She, Isabel - her girlfriend - and Jenna changed schools, some things got out of control. Isabel isn't the sweet, innocent, accepting, supporting girlfriend Eve thought she is. When Eve meets Adam she's slowly falling for him, not knowing he's a she called Ada. Eve gets extremely confused with her sexuality, just then Isabel finds out about Eve's feelings. And Isabel started to change. Is she finally showing her real face? Or is this something from her past that she's constantly fighting? What will happen when Ada(m) finally tells them that she's not a guy? Whom is Eve going to choose? Isabel, her girlfriend, with a fucked-up past? Or Ada, the attractive, sweet player? Or is shit going down and Eve just decides to be single?