Finding Love

I'm just broken. I want to be left alone. I don't want to feel this pain anymore. So every night I go out and party. And get drunk. And sleep with random girls. Why? Because I can. Because it washes the pain away. Because she left me. She broke my heart and walked out of my life like I was nothing. She was my world. My everything. But she lost interest. And started cheating on me. So that's why Im here. Staring at another random girls bedroom ceiling. I haven't talked to the boys since the breakup. I can't stand the look of pity for me on their faces. I just ignore them. They all judge me. For my actions. I don't need them. I don't need anyone.