I Wanna
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I wanna "accidentally" take one too many pills. I wanna "accidentally" step in front of a train. I wanna "accidentally" get my head caught in a top tangling from something. I wanna "accidentally" cut too deep. I wanna "accidentally" step in front of a car. I wanna "accidentally" engulf a lot of water at once. I wanna leave. I wanna get away. I wanna disappear, and vanish from all of existence. I need out I need an escape. I'm tired of the endless and sleepless nights, because of all the shit running through my brain. I feel empty and lost, nowhere to go, nothing to do, and I need out. I need out of this shit hole. Away from life and people, away from everything. I never asked to be born, I never asked to be a human, I never asked for any of this. So why am I suffering so bad? I'm such an innocent person, so why me? Please just help me. Let me go, let me leave. End my pain and suffering. Please, I beg you...
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