I will win him back

Mistakes, done a lot. I agree. I have said sorry a many times to him, I will continue it for the lifetime if he wants to. He doesn't trust me anymore, what can be worst than this. Even if I try to be normal, this feeling to lose him is breaking me piece by piece. Does he feel the same? Or he just wants to leave me up and move on?
The worst feeling I ever went through. I don't have words to express my disturbed mind!
I can express only one thing at present that I love HIM . But the thing is that, he doesn't trust my words or maybe he doesn't love me. Whenever he says this I get chilled Nd my tears don't take even a second to come out. It might be easy for him to move on, but not for me. Like never I can move on!
Who can live without their husband??
I'll yet keep trying,
Because I can never give him up!!