Reasons: To Die
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Reasons: to die
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"Maya who the hell that?"
"Maya your such a loner!"
"Maya you ugly whore!"
"Maya, why are you here?"
"Maya you anorexic alien!"
"Maya take the hint- no one wants you!"
These are all but little of what Maya Taylor hears in her everyday life. She puts up with it but the worst part is that she believes it. Every word. But the worst one that cut her like a axe was said behind her back.
"Maya, who that anorexic orphan? The one who no one will love or does love." Was the exact words in which the person shed had a crush on since primary had said.
It cut her and lead her to this ticking bomb. It was her reason for giving reasons to death. Her way to escape the hell hound called School. As well as life. She wanted a permanent goodbye.
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This story is partly true and based upon one of my close friends. She had gone through bad things and even thought of suicide but with help from friends and teachers she got through it and now is happy. She even committed self harm. However, she is at the point in which she really regrets listening to others hate and not the people who love. She regrets harming herself to make others better. She regrets even thinking of suicide for one point in her life. And I'm thankful that I could help her.
This story has been changed around a bit so that it isn't based entirely of her life.
I do t support any of the comments in the books (the nasty ones) and I don't want anyone to think this is directed to them. Thank you for picking this.
Mai xxx
Ps read at own risk cause bitch this is HORRIBLE.
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