Bones was my best friend growing up, my lover in college, my partner in life, and my husband in death. But above all that, he was my only friend and still is. Even though he's gone now. We both left each other then within a few hours came back, wholly belonging to one another. Unable and unwilling to escape, nor was there anything to "escape" from; our romance was freedom itself manifested in countless stolen kisses, intimate touches, and deep embraces. And when we made love it could be as freakish as a carnival show or as tender as two cats caressing each other in the quicksilver warmth of a moon beam. We collided and meshed and viciously ground into one another's souls. Neither of us wished it would ever stop. Sure we had our brief pauses, but we always came running back together in the end. I would have followed him to the ends of the Earth and beyond and I know he'd have done the same for me. If only Life would have given us a chance.
Life isn't a glue that holds people together. It's a roiling, raging river one minute and a calm, rippling stream the next. But it's always moving, never truly resting. Life tears people apart, takes them far away from each other in different directions, and they don't see each other again for a very, very long time, if ever again.
Imagine this.
At a young age, you lost the only true love you ever felt from a father out of nowhere. Just ripped from your life.
Few years later. You find a brotherly love. More than just that. A best friend kind of love. Maybe a little more than that but, they leave you as well. Just gone from your life.
It pains you. You normally hide this but you just reached a point that you can't hide the tears well no more. Can't hide the fact that you're destroyed from within.
Just again, few years later. That fatherly love suddenly returns. The friendship love comes back. You have it back. But with a price. You learn life isn't what you thought it was. It made your head spin. You wanted to go back to the old you.
Your best friend is a wolf. Your dad is a wolf. You. Are part wolf. This whole world isn't perfect like you thought. Arrange marriages are real and you're in it. You can't back out.
So what do you do?
You accept it.
That's what I had to do, no?