They have been 4 years no action on my life no nothing. I just go from work to the house and that's pretty much it. Exton has 17. He talks to ____ through the phone and still I always try to avoid any theme of her. She married with Jamie. She invited me and Exton the wedding I didn't went. I knew that I will not hold my anger to see the love of my life marry to another man. She has a child of 3 years. He will turn 4 in March. They say that he doesn't look like the father thing that they say that they had problems with that. Jamie says that is mine. But they don't believe him. But I will be sincere I really will had love to have a kid with, _____. But I had to fuck it up with what I said and actions. Thing that I always regret what I just said that day. I have received call of _____. But I tried to convince myself that she would be good with Jamie and I really have to say that still I don't. Same as I have seen her walk towards my house and sometimes she walk just to the porch. Then she doesn't knock the door. Then _____, just stands in front stay still and then walks away. I really miss her laugh and her creative intelligent ways to make me smile. Thing that is gone in my life. I always remember the past days around her. In my mind always jumps many ideas of who my life will be with her. But I always remember what I said. Then a knock in the door interrupted my thoughts. I went to the door and opened it. "__________!" Mature content.