The Diary of E
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Last published Wed, Jul 30, 2025
This is my personal journal of my struggles with my ED and fighting to be thin. My original story (published 2013), which had hundreds of thousands of views, was taken down in 2015 by Wattpad without any warning. I was 14-17 y/o at the time.
I'm now 26, graduated from university and working my dream job. Still one problem. My weight. I was small for a brief moment in time (2022-2024) and thought semaglutide/GLP-1s would bring me to that next level. Oh, how I was sadly mistaken. In 2025 I'm back at my start weight from 2020. 232lbs.
The difference now? I am still in recovery and know that the old-tricks? Die hard. We do it right this time. No binges + "cleaning up". Just a good old and reliable calorie deficit.
Follow along as I try to find my way home. *the genre is "fiction" to avoid my story being taken down again.*
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