To Be; To Not
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Last published Tue, May 31, 2016
Cecil is a boy who's lived the past few years in denial of his sexuality and has taken one-night stands with prostitutes is invited to an event that could change him forever. An old classmate who's been bedridden for years invites him to create artwork for her brother's funeral the next day. The only problem is that Cecil's old middle school flame could be attending as well...
WARNING: This story involves self-harm, suicidal thoughts, depression, cussing, and mild sexual interactions and/or nudity. Please read if you are at least 13 or older. Thank you.
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