Lost in my thoughts

This is going to be a story about myself and what I go through. This will include my thoughts and feelings. I'll admit, it will get a little sexual at times, and it will probably get really dark sometimes, but that's just a part of who I am. It all depends on what I want to include and what I don't want to include, depending on what they consist of. I'll try not to make it too dark, but I want to keep it real.
*this is for mature audiences only. If you cannot handle certain things, like an age gap for example, then don't read this. You have been warned.*