What the Righteous Man Ruined (2 of 3)

What we had was clinging hands. It was fervent lips and seeking tongues. It was a million degrees in the dead of winter and equally as cold in the swelter of summer. It was the greatest thing I've ever experienced. It was also the worst. It was making love to my best friend and waking up desperate to talk to someone about the confusion, the darkness that came with the sex and being unable to because He's the only person I've ever been able to talk to. It was seeing my sister and her boyfriend, His brother and his girl, and wanting to be normal for once in my life.

Cas' cheeks burn. He knows what he wrote, and he knows that the truth in the words is terrifying. He loves Dean, God, does he ever, but they were a supernova. Supernovas are meant to burn bright, not forever, and if Dean gets to be that supernova, then Cas can live with being the endless black hole he leaves in his wake. As long as Dean still burns bright somewhere in this universe...