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"I don't know how to do this, Kaden! Don't you see?!" I was nearly screaming at him while tears were threatening to cascade down my face. I clutched my throat with my cold fingers and felt a little bit of relief. Not from yelling at him; he didn't deserve that. I didn't know how to do this relationship thing. It wasn't me...no matter how much I wanted it to be. I wasn't content with myself so I couldn't allow anyone else in.

	His head was turned to look at whatever was to his left. Guess he can't stand to look at me either. "Oh, Sienna." It was almost inaudible, but I heard him. He knew me better than I knew myself. He knew exactly what I was thinking. I felt a bit of my heart break.

       My mother was right. I was a lot ruder to myself than anyone else every was. But if I put the thoughts in my mind before anyone else could that meant they couldn't hurt me when they tried. 

        He felt like he was miles and miles away from me but he was just a mere 3 feet away, standing directly in front of me.

	I had pushed him away many times before, but none were as bad as this time. The look in his eyes, when he finally looked back at me, said it all. He didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to continue. Suddenly, it felt like Kaden had fallen from my grasp. It felt like my air supply was being cut off. I so desperately wanted to scream 'No, Kaden! I'm sorry. I don't know how to do this but I need you to show me. I need for you to believe in me.' But, unfortunately, that wasn't how the world worked.

	Instead of swallowing my pride I let the man that I loved, yet neglected to tell him, walk away from me for the last time. I felt it was better for him. Maybe I'd stop hurting him if he just left. He'd been so powerful when I first met him...so full of life. I'd taken that away from him and had no right in doing so. Instead, I watched him walk away as the tears started to fall and the rest of my heart slowly started to crumble inside of me. I felt so lost already.All Rights Reserved

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Limits: love & Hate by mystic_world30

"In a world of shadows, she hid her true self, while he buried his emotions deep within. They were both running from the truth, yet unknowingly running toward each other." <No one notices your pain until it turns into anger, and then you're the bad person> __________________________________________________________________________ *SCENE* A mischievous smirk plays on his lips as he strides towards me, his eyes glinting with a mix of challenge and desire. As he approaches, the crowd around us begins to quiet, sensing the tension in the air. I stood my ground, my posture stiffening as i noticed his intent. With a sly grin, he invades my personal space, towering over me, using his presence to unsettle me. "I see how much of a 'pick me' you are, let me fulfill your desire then" His voice drips with mockery and seduction as he taunts me, playing up the scene for the onlookers. Without warning, he leans in closer, his hand brushing against my waist in a bold, provocative gesture, trying to 'God knows what to do?' in front of the gathered students. The crowd murmurs, some watching with bated breath, others with amused curiosity. But before he can take it any further, my eyes flash with resolve. In one swift motion, I bring my fist up and lands a solid punch on his nose. "Argh" The impact is immediate-a sickening crunch followed by him staggering back, clutching his nose in shock and pain. Blood trickles down his face, and the hallway erupts into gasps and whispers. My gaze fierce as i glared at him, voice steady and cold. "Don't you dare try that ever again," i warned, turning on my heel and walking away, leaving to nurse his bruised pride and bloodied nose, while everyone watches in stunned silence, the tables turned in a way no one had expected. "You'll pay for this" I heard his fading voice, while walking away from everyone, a smirk formed on my face thinking 'well! I do have lots of money'. [Not edited]

Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ by ZaynismRules

***this book contains suicidal thoughts and tendencies, may not be appropriate for younger audiences*** In which she looks for the purpose of life. Lily Carter's parents died in a car crash leaving her and Laura, girl was depressed long before her parents passed away and with all the problems turning up now, Lily felt more miserable - if that's even possible. With her journey to look for life's purpose and grab the small pinch of HOPE - which is ironically her second name -, will she finally snap at the pressure and finally end it all? or will a small light lit her darkened world of grief and loneliness? * "So you know. The little goth girl who gets bullied is indeed a mess. There's this mess in her head that eats her alive everyday isn't it? What to do now Kaden? Tell the whole neighborhood and recieve an award for taking out a crazy in this world?" I spit like vomit. His eyes warmed up as I finished, "Lily. It isn't like that" "What is it then? People stopped caring... they gave up, why aren't you?" I fought my tears. "Because I feel the need to care. Did Leigh hurt you? Did she hit you?" he finally noticed the unusual redness of my cheek. I don't like the way he told me he needed to care for me. I felt like an obligation, a responsibility that he is carrying and carrying leads to getting tired and when people gets tired, they give up. I don't want them to give up on me. But they will, so it's good not to make them care for me in the first place. "I never needed anyone. I stopped needing anyone before, why start now?" I uttered the words again. Why? There is nothing to fight for. No mama. No papa. No sister to love me. No one. So why would I waste my life and the time of others to fix what is already broken - and someone who doesn't want to be fixed? If I may add. Maybe I gave up. No, scratch that. I gave up a long time ago - when my parents died, my hope and purpose went away with them.

She's Married To Rasmus✔️ by marsntalwrites

Rasmus was shocked when he saw me and it was as if he saw a ghost. Fuck! Why did you do this to me! You said you didn't have a relationship with her but now it's clear to me! I can see it with my own two eyes that they love each other! "Sheryl." He softly said my name. He stood up causing his woman to move away from him. "Look it is not what you think.." I don't know if I was imagining it because I just saw his emotion as if he was afraid and feel sorry for me or sad. "Ras stop it! What are you talking about? We kissed didn't we? Why do you have to explain to her?!" His woman seems annoyed. Rasmus couldn't take his eyes off me and even surprised his woman when he pulled back his arm that was holding her. He slowly walked towards me. My tears just continued to fall and my vision was blurred because of the tireless release of water from my eyes "Hey, I don't know how to explain this but believe me I didn't kiss her." He still managed to lie in front of me?! My fists clenched. I just smiled bitterly at him before I turned and ran out of the house. I didn't look at him again and I know he followed me because I heard him calling my name. I can barely see the road I'm running to because of my blurred vision. It hurt so much! It's like I'm slowly being crushed by this disease. Why did I love someone like him and why didn't I love Tristan? He is better over him! Why is the world so unfair?! Why me?! I was deaf and I couldn't hear anything because my mind was consumed by emotions. I don't know if this road I ran is still right. I suddenly came back to my thoughts when I heard a loud beep of a car. The last thing I saw was Rasmus' shocked eyes as he ran towards me. It happened so fast, I didn't realize that I was hit by a car, thrown in the air and fell it caused my vision to darken. ******** Mature content | R18+ Highest rank #1 - hates

Scars by SarahORawe4

"If I risk it all, could you break my fall? How do I live? How do I breathe? When your not here i'm sufficated. I wanna feel love, run through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up? For you, I have to risk it all, Cuz the Writing's on the Walls." This is a story about a boy and a girl. She loves him, and he want's her dead. But he vowed to keep her safe..But how can he keep such a dangerous vow? *EXCERPT FROM BOOK BELOW* "Our story is like the movies. The movies with the happy endings?" I yelled as he got out of the car. "No! Our ending is nothing like those movies Vana. Our story is the both of us risking it all and then ending up right next to Kyle." He said and sighed. And he was right. Our ending is that one fucked up movie that no on wants to go see. "SO YOU AREN'T WILLING TO RISK IT ALL!?! I yelled louder as the rain came pouring down. He turned on his heal and stomped twords me pulling me close to him leaveing no space between us. His lips came crashing down on mine making the butterflies in my stomach errupt with pleaseure. He pulled away and sighed as did I. He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb over the knuckle of my thumb over my tattoo thanks to his stupid game of dare or dare. "Look at the perspective of things Vana. You might see a smily face but I don't. I see a sad face. You don't want my happy ending. Trust me." He said and sighed again. "I love you so much Vana." He said and kissed the top of my head and then walked back over to his house. But he didn't really love me. If he did he would be willing to risk it all just like I am. But I am left just like Kyle had suspected. Alone and heart broken in the rain. Because I was always the one willing to risk it all. For him.

I'm Only His...(Book 1) by Nenerh1

I stand there wide eyed and frozen where I am being held in place. The sounds of fists connecting on skin, cracking under his bloody fists. How can he be so cruel and heartless? Why doesn't he just leave me alone? "STOP PLEASE JUST STOP!" I hear myself scream feeling warm tears fall down my cheek. I couldn't bear it anymore. At the sound of my scream, he stops midair snapping his head towards my frightened one with a sadistic smirk. He does that every time someone begs. "Sorry Princess, I don't think I heard you?" He heard me, that's how he plays with people's emotions. "Stop just let him go he didn't do anything wrong." He stares at me blankly. His eyes show anger. "HE DID DO SOMETHING WRONG! HE TOUCHED YOU! NO ONE TOUCHES WHAT'S MINE!" I flinch from his screams, something I always do when he yells. "I'm... we aren't." I shake my head. "Say it. I WANT.TO.HEAR.YOU.SAY.IT!" I know what he wants me to say, I just couldn't. He notices that I am not going to say the three words he wants to hear. Turning to face his punching bag, he lifts his arm again, hatred in his eyes. "STOP! I -- I'll say it, just please stop. He's had enough." I say defeated. Dropping his arm, he drops him on the ground like a sack of dirt and stalks towards me as the arms that restrain me let go. "Tell me Princess. Tell me what I want to hear." he cups my face with his bloody hands. Staring into his cold-hearted eyes I let out a shaky breath "I -- I'm...only...yours." His lips curl up into a smile pulling me into his lips. Kissing me possessively, I shut my eyes tightly. Pulling away he goes back to a serious face. "You.Are.OnlyMine! Remember that. You belong to me. You know I will kill any guy that even thinks to look, speak or touch you. Do you understand me? I nod my head yes glancing over at the limp body on the ground then back at him. Stepping back, he turns and kicks him on his side making him spit blood out. "Next time you're dead!" ... I'm only his...

Deeper Connections +18 by kaygeequeen

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Will i be fix by nightvenoms

(Flash back) Ivy you know I love you right? I had looked him in his eyes as I as I reply, "Yes silly of course I know that you love me. But right after I had said that he made a face at me. But this wasn't no normal face he really did look hurt after I had said that. I wonder why he had made that face at me. For what had seemed like a really good minute he didn't reply to me I was starting to think that he wasn't going to respond back to me then he open his mouth but the words that came out of it cut my heart in a million pieces. "Look Ivy I bought you hear to tell you something very important." Before I could say anything he sudenly said as fast as he can, "Look Ivy I bought you hear to tell you that I am moving." Right after he had said that it was my turn to give a face but unlike his my face wasn't sad at that exact moment my face was more on the confused side. Wait no this couldn't be happening he is my best friend he can't just up and leave me right? I got pulled out of my thoughts when I realized that tears was rolling down my face. He try to hug me but I couldn't do it. I couldn't just hug him like everything is ok. Because everything wasn't okay. And I didn't want to be the one to say good bye. (End of flashback)

I Am Seer - Book 3 by WriterByNight12

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Drake's Kitten (completed) by Yellow1017

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"In a world of shadows, she hid her true self, while he buried his emotions deep within. They were both running from the truth, yet unknowingly running toward each other." <No one notices your pain until it turns into anger, and then you're the bad person> __________________________________________________________________________ SCENE A mischievous smirk plays on his lips as he strides towards me, his eyes glinting with a mix of challenge and desire. As he approaches, the crowd around us begins to quiet, sensing the tension in the air. I stood my ground, my posture stiffening as i noticed his intent. With a sly grin, he invades my personal space, towering over me, using his presence to unsettle me. "I see how much of a 'pick me' you are, let me fulfill your desire then" His voice drips with mockery and seduction as he taunts me, playing up the scene for the onlookers. Without warning, he leans in closer, his hand brushing against my waist in a bold, provocative gesture, trying to 'God knows what to do?' in front of the gathered students. The crowd murmurs, some watching with bated breath, others with amused curiosity. But before he can take it any further, my eyes flash with resolve. In one swift motion, I bring my fist up and lands a solid punch on his nose. "Argh" The impact is immediate-a sickening crunch followed by him staggering back, clutching his nose in shock and pain. Blood trickles down his face, and the hallway erupts into gasps and whispers. My gaze fierce as i glared at him, voice steady and cold. "Don't you dare try that ever again," i warned, turning on my heel and walking away, leaving to nurse his bruised pride and bloodied nose, while everyone watches in stunned silence, the tables turned in a way no one had expected. "You'll pay for this" I heard his fading voice, while walking away from everyone, a smirk formed on my face thinking 'well! I do have lots of money'. [Not edited]