Writing 'Us' Away

Dear Myungsoo,

You promised. You gave me your word. You filled me with hope and security. You told me the things I needed to hear to take the chance and make the jump with you. You made me feel like I was worth it, I was who you wanted. But you shattered all of that quite well. You couldn't take it anymore. You turned around and left me falling without you. You promised me you wouldn't but you did. You left me. You gave up on us.

I was left a crying mess for weeks until I eventually came to accept that the chances of you being in my arms again are low. I know everything has its end but I never thought you and I would turn out the way we did. Although, a goodbye would've been nice. Instead, you left just like that, without a warning or whatsoever. I need closure, Myungsoo. That's all I need. But I probably won't be getting one anytime soon, will I? Your sister came over yesterday. She was carrying a box filled with my things in it. I didn't say much as I took it from her hands but deep down, I had hoped it was you standing before me instead.

I want to hit you. I want to scream at you. I want you to know how much I miss you. Yet, I can't. I'm not given that chance. It's over between us and that's all there is to it. Therefore, I've decided to start writing to you - all the words left unsaid, the feelings left burried, the guilt left within me. How many letters will I write?.

As many as it takes to get over you, Kim Myungsoo.

Yours Truly and Always,

Serri

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They say that if you love someone, let them go.

If they're meant to be yours, they'll come back in due time.

This is different though.

I know you're never coming back.

©Aundrei