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Always Awake

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Reads 421
Votes 74
Parts 23
Time 2h 3m

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Ellie is trapped between two worlds. And has to make a choice. Her friend's or the boy she has only ever dreamed about. Who will she choose? Can she save her mysterious boy from getting dragged back down into the shadows of depression?

"I am so fucking proud, every single breath means something.Every breath he takes is like a punch at the thoughts in his head. Each breath he takes, the more thoughts he kills. If he keeps breathing they will be all gone."All Rights Reserved

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Help me

Dave and Joel has known each other for a long time. Can Joel help Dave overcoming his depression, and more importantly, will they fall in love? --------------------------------------------------------------- TW & just warnings - Selfharm - Suicidal thoughts - Suicide (it's in a dream tho) - Eating disorder - Cringe - Bad Grammar If I've forgotten anything, feel free to tell me ------------------------- Status: completed (finally) Cover art is made by u/ilovecurlyfluffyrami from Reddit