Recovery: A Phan Fiction
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Last published Wed, Jun 22, 2016
This is my first fic so feedback is appreciated. Hope you enjoy!
Dan Howell needs Phil Lester in his life. He's more than just his best friend, he's his other half, the only thing keeping his shattered life together.
Losing Phil seemed impossible, but Dan's recovery is what seemed completely insane. But that's what Dan has to face.
This fic deals a lot with heavy topics such as suicide and self-harm, and I'll be posting new parts as often as possible.
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