Burning or Drowning?

Burning Or Drowning?
Which would you prefer?
No answer?
Think I'm crazy?
Maybe demented?
Some call me psychotic, others say I'm mentally unstable. . .
To the contrary, I'm neither. . .
I prefer being called different, maybe just a little bit twisted!
You see you have no answer but one is always favored more then the others and yet . . .
Both are equally horrible, RIGHT?
If it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger. . .
Can you say bull shit?
If it doesn't kill you, you'd wish it did. . . because existing after an experience like that is worse then living.
Burning from the outside would leave you scarred, damaged for the world to see. . .
I had a dream once . . .
I burned from the inside out. . .
The flames consuming me from within, scorching everything in sight, it was far more excruciating then burning from the outside in.
Unable to smother the fire as your blood boils, your veins burst, every organ is slowly incinerated; all while you are deteriorating in an agonizing fate worse then death, until finally I turn into a pile of worthless ash.
Now with drowning one would think would be a better choice, however it's just as dreadful and twice as taunting.
While you burn it harms you physically but with drowning . . . that destroys you mentally!
Breaking every barrier. . .
The panic. . .
The struggle. . .
The lack of oxygen making it's way to your lungs. . .
The torture of fighting for your life but realizing you are too weak against your tormentor. . .
As you are brought back to the surface gasping for air that never seems to be enough. . .
Cringing at the sight of that sadistic smile you've come to despise but can't help but fear!
Over and over you are pushed even further beneath the surface with no way of escaping.
No matter how hard I screamed and begged to be freed!
I was overpowered by a stranger who's decided to play God!
So burning or drowning?
Last night I died twice. . .
By burning and drowning, neither one was pleasant.