Deranged

Have you ever felt like you are in this world just to be judged, scrutinized, or picked at ? Or you just feel like you have a weight on your shoulders and there's no way to relieve the pressure of it because you have no one to talk to or it's just that you can't seem to let it out because you don't trust anyone ? Then you're deceived as a crazy person because you prefer to keep things to yourself. You know how people say " oh I can't trust anyone anymore I'm not trying to get hurt" but it's only as if there saying it to get attention or when someone says on social media "I have no friends" or " I can't trust anyone" but has millions of friends and a herd of people to stand behind them and this just bothers you to the core ? Because this actually you but they are making it seem like there someone else just to get attention. And you just sitting there being jealous because you wish you had people to open up to but you're physically incapable of doing this because you've spent years growing this thick skin and you can't get out of it ? No? Well, I guess it's just me.