The Kontra Bida has Fallen

Do you know how it felt like when people stare with you emotionless? I bet not. Sometimes it is okay when people look at you with anger and disgust rather than no one is caring for you, no one is compassionate with you and most especially, no one is capable of loving you.

I am Serenity Heartluck, many are wondering why my surname doesn't suit me, well 'Heartluck' means maswerte ka sa love but bakit ako hindi naman. Walang nag mamahal sa akin, lahat na Lang panandalian lang. Siguro nga may nag mamahal din pero limited. Bakit ba ganito ang mundo ko. Ako na Lang ang laging kontra bida sa buhay ng iba. Bakit ba Hindi nila maintindihan ang point of view ko. Bakit lagi na Lang mga bida sa storya ang maganda sa paningin ng mga Tao? Paano naman yung mga Tulad ko na ang lagi na Lang napapansin ay ang mga kamalian ko? Paano naman yung mga magagandang pangyayari na naidulot o naging bunga ng mga pagkakamaling iyon?

Before I became emotionless, I was very different. I was very socialize, active and very friendly. Pero marami talagang judgemental na mga Tao sa paligid Kaya slowly, I've changed. I became unfriendly and unactive, at Dahil dun nag mukha akong mas di Kaya-aya sa paningin nila lalo na sa taong mahal ko. Sa paningin niya kontra bida ako, lahat ng galaw ko Mali. They don't understand me and what I feel, they are selfish!

Before, I dream about loving someone that I can really tame kasi sa principle ko, mas masarap mag mahal ng mga lalaking nagbabago Dahil sa iyo, but now, it's the opposite. Can someone is determine enough to change me for what I am now? Can someone will come to change me? Or can someone is man enough to love me for what I am now?