Sleeping
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Last published Mon, Jun 6, 2016
Why does bad stuff always happen to me? Why can't I just live like a normal human being without having to deal with this shit?! I really REALLY hate people sometimes, but not as much as I hate myself.
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johnnieguilbert
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