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Unsettled Retrospection

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Parts 4
Time 49m

Reads 90
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Parts 4
Time 49m

Everything keeps shattering. My heart and my mind ,it loose its sanity. Breaking. Yes, breaking. I don't know who could give me a remedy for this heartache.  Each cell in my body continuously weakening. My eyes are weary because of crying to the extent that tears won't come out. It is hard to breathe.  Giving up is all in my mind. I want to end this misery. Why did I trust him? Why did I expect? Worst, why did I fall in love with him? Where did it all started? ...   



 Now , I remember. It was the day I laid my eyes on him.All Rights Reserved

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