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"She's right! She's right! I don't cut in the right spot." My hold tightens on my wrist. The red blood oozes out of my wrist. 
  
I slide up and grab my bag and run out of the bathroom. I don't care if people can see the blood I just want to get out. 
  
I race for the doors and shove through people. I earn a lot of glares and glances that read "weirdo." I ignore and push. 
  
I run to my house and lock myself in my bathroom. I don't bother closing the front door cause I don't care if people come in to kill me. 
  
I grab my razor and cut deep cuts into my arm and wrists falling into a pool of my own blood. 
  
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Evangeline has a great life. Friends? Check! Good grades? Check! Loving family? Check! But what if she has secrets that nobody knows of? What if the only thing she can trust is her secret diary? What if slowly but surly she's dying inside? How can an innocent twelve year old deal with these problems?
  
Will she keep on facing these problem till the day she breaks. 
  
Her school burns down forcing her into a different school to meet different people and she has to fit into a different lifestyle as well. 
  
Meet Evangeline. Now at 17 years of age in a new high school. Not all girls anymore. No uniform. 
  
Meet Drake. Your classic bad-boy. He just moved to Saint Abigail high school.  He is assigned partners with the quiet, calm, unnoticed Evangeline. 
  
As time progresses he finds that she isn't as happy on the inside as she is on the outside. Can he save her? Or is it too late?
  
• • •
  
Some rude language. Depression and cutting. Don't say I didn't warn you. 
  
Okay, I wrote this at the start of this year (may 2016) and I had very poor writing skills. This book hasn't been edited and the whole idea is cliche so I wouldn't recommend you read it but I'm not stopping you, either. Read at your own risk. 
 
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Copyright © 2017 by -moonlust. All rights reserved.All Rights Reserved

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Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. * TRIGGER WARNING* SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.