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Pursuing Sanity

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Dear God,

Was I ever meant to be born? So much has just happened throught my life making me wonder if I'm just a curse upon this world. Nothing ever seems to go right... Was my birth just a curse to those that were around me? Is that the reason why I've been abandoned here? God, I wish I had magical powers like you because that way I would be able to push those who bring me down; but I'm too weak. She keeps telling me I'm useless and unimportant. She says there is a solution for all of this, but is it all worth it in the end? 
I want to feel loved; I want to feel what is like to be important to someone but all they see is the freak... I wished someone will  care at least a bit to figure out who's the girl behind the white gown...All Rights Reserved

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Blue Hair and Bruised Knees by booodiful

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Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ by ZaynismRules

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UNLOVED (Gally x Reader Fanfic) by writingb00ks

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