Seeking Beautiful Silence
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Last published Tue, Dec 6, 2016
Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in my own thoughts, like one day I'll disappear in this sea of despair. I feel so alone all the time and no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to find happiness. I seek it. Silence. Silence from the negative voices around me. Silence from the voices in my head. Just Pure Beautiful Silence. ****Trigger Warning, will most likely contain mentions of depression, suicide, self harm, etc. so be prepared if you're affected by that kind of thing.
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