Released (phan Au)
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Last published Sun, Sep 29, 2019
Daniel Howell doesn't want to live, eventually finding himself in a mental institution. Done with life and everything it has to offer he finds himself a friend in the happy joyful Phil Lester , maybe they can become more. But with both their severe depression and anxiety how long will it last?... How long will they,themselves, last?
*WARNING*
•triggering
•Suicide mentions/attempts
•Depression
•Cutting
•Possible deaths, I have not yet decided.
*NOTICE*
•Daniel and Phil do not owe me anything nor do I owe them.
• I do not encourage the forcing of phan or any other ship, I look down upon that.
•Most of these pictures were not made by me, if you know the artist please write them in the comments as there art is fantastic and they should be recognized for it.
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