My Life Is Ruined

my name is monika I'm 16 my life is kinda a nightmare I've been through a lot in my pass an one of the problems is my father he abandon me an I always say when I graduate if he was to come I was going to bring him on stage an say this I feel like embarrassing a bitch today an its gone gone be this MF see this my biological father this MF ride pass me everyday don't even stop or blow his horn to say hey but don't worry bitch u gone pay ooo trust u gone pay one way or another dead r alive bcuz I hate u I hate u I hate u with everything in me u hurt me so much man nigga I'll walk in to your funeral an say fuck your body man fuck everybody aye bro u dirty asf u brought somebody in this world u won't watch grow up but don't worry u gone pay dead or alive ion give AF see u made me this way an u still don't give AF ooo an don't worry IMA make it through skool go ta collage