A Jewel kindness

Am I different to others that I can't figure out what are the differences between me and them?

Do I have to change just to achieve what I want?

Or do I have to claim what I really want?

What if I change will they befriend with me?

Will they accept who I am in my past till now?

Why does this thought bring up to me if I can't even think of a honest answer to my questions?

What kind of jewel am I if I can't even answer my own riddles?