why am i the way that i am

i don't have a real title this is very much a wip atm
VERY canon divergent: malistaire never actually died and went with sylvia he was just kinda like "fINE YOU WIN" and u left him crying on the ground half dead like the asshole u r and then shit happens and ye
and yES it has a lovechild and it seems really mary sue-ish and cringy but honestly i don't care at this point