The Beauty of suicide
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Ongoing, First published Jun 20, 2016
The thing I want most isn't a phone or a pet or my parents to get back together (although it would be good) no none of those things, the thing I want most is for my mind to shut up, to breathe  my last breath so basically I want to die to flout away to into a different world.


"SUNSHINE? Your parents called you sunshine?" He asked shocked 
"Shh not everyone needs to know ok" I whisper looking down at my shoes
"Please,please just stick to calling me Matthew" I  beg
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"and you left me with bad habits like cracking my knuckles and wearing your sweater because the smell of you still lingers. you left me chewing at the skin of my skin on my lips because maybe just maybe if it's gone the taste of you will be too, but the problem is i can't tear off my skin. so i'm left with the shivers down my spine when my body remembers your hands running up my back as you kissed me and it paralyzes me because i miss it. i miss you. i miss smiling between kisses because damn you just made me happy and I thought I made you just as happy because you would smile and whisper "what" but i would just shake my head and pull you close and it was real. it was. all of it. so why did you leave me? why?"