The Beauty of suicide

The thing I want most isn't a phone or a pet or my parents to get back together (although it would be good) no none of those things, the thing I want most is for my mind to shut up, to breathe my last breath so basically I want to die to flout away to into a different world.

"SUNSHINE? Your parents called you sunshine?" He asked shocked
"Shh not everyone needs to know ok" I whisper looking down at my shoes
"Please,please just stick to calling me Matthew" I beg