Abdullah Nasser, a determined perfectionist with superb grades and a guilty conscience, is caught in a brutal misunderstanding that leads the authorities to believe that he tried to kill someone, while his family slowly falls apart and his faith cracks under the pressure. Throughout it all Abdullah frequently wonders: where is God when he needs Him most? Because he's starting to doubt that He even exists. - - - *Warning: This story will reference self harm, suicide and depression. I'll write 'Trigger warning' on chapters that include this content.