"What's it like being a fangirl?" She says curiously. I look her dead in the eye and tell her "It's like death and happiness rolled into a ball. Sometimes you want to scream and smile. Then other times you just want to cry. There is no in between." And I watch as the expression of hopefulness for great things in a fangirl's life to happen fall from her face. But she already knows once your in the fandom there is no such thing as leaving.