demoralized

you can call this a vent, or a life story or whatever you want, doesn't matter. sorry if my life slightly disturbs you, man. i'm really bad at writing these here (i have a shitload of unpublished work lol) so if i messed something up let me know ;-)

"demoralized"

dɪˈmɒrəlʌɪzd/

adjective

having lost confidence or hope; disheartened.