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Hurting on the Inside [phan]
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Last published Wed, Sep 28, 2016
Dan's whole family collapsed right before him when his mum died. His dad started drinking again and with that his anger issues quickly sprung back inside him. With no wife to control his father, he spiralled, and now Dan counts down the days until he can leave. But then comes Phil. Phil understands Dan and can get through to him like no one else. He gives Dan's life a purpose. But Phil has secrets of his own, ones that he thought had been buried away years ago. But when one person comes back into his life, Phil has to decide between running away from his problems again or staying with the people who love him and the person that he loves...
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