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The Voices of Ana and Mia (Book 1)

Write_to_save_myself

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Parts 32
Time 3h 55m

Write_to_save_myself

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abuse anorexia bulimia cutting disorder eating harm reality self

So Wattpad did this stupid shit where it deleted my story. So here is the story again.
For all you newcomers welcome! :) 

I  messed up. Ate a lot of chocolate. I'm such a fat pig, ugh... I was doing so well too.-Lizzy

Oh Lizzy, You are sooo FAT! FAT! FAT! FAT! You seriously lack self-control. I saw you eating those chocolates. Fatty McFAT FAT!

Ed was talking to me again. Ed is kinda like my master, he controls how I live. He tell me what I can eat, if I can eat, and where I can eat. Except today I screwed up and Ed was mad at me today though. I has lost control and had eaten out of emotions. I had not consulted ED about it. That was a major mistake, I asked Ed about everything.

I can't believe you ate that. You are so fat. Like really. And you didn't even ask Ana or Mia what to do afterwards. They always have to clean up your mess. You're mistakes. Your slip-ups. You're such a failure. A humongous gluttonous cow. Eat with you're mouth closed, better yet, don't eat at all!

I'm so sorry Ed, I'll do better today, I promise. I whispered to myself.

You will do better. You will also listen to Ana today.

I hate Ana. She tells me that I can't eat. I can only exercise. I can't go all day without eating. People will know. They will find out about Ed.

In a world where you can't trust anyone it's hard to find relief. Except I found Ed, and He gives me the relief. He teaches me self-control. If people find out about Ed they will try and make me get rid of him. I can't do that, so no one can find out.

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