My way of clearing my thoughts
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So I woke up this morning. It felt like all the other mornings. Basic and useless. I just want to lay down and stay in my bed, cause that is the only place that I feel really really really comfy in with no other human-beings around.
Not that I hate people! Well, not all of them, I have enough friends that I love to death.
I really don't know why I feel this way.. There is no reason actually, I have enough friends, my health is fine, my wealth is fine, social life is ok, but still I feel that there is a piece that is missing.
The best thing of Wattpad? No one knows me, except of one of my best friends. He has Wattpad too and writes stories, nice ones.
Do I write stories? No. That's not really my piece of cake. I tried though, I really want it to work, to just feel that writing could be something for me, and I enjoy writing but there is no imagination (?) in my mind, after a while my mind just turns blank and then I can't add some twist to my story.
Soooooooooooooo, this is not going to be a story, this is going to be my diary. Forgive me if I don't write everyday in it, if spell something wrong and forgive me if I am whining.. I am going to see this as a possibility to clear my thoughts, to sort out my mind and feelings and I don't demand you to read it, so if it doesn't interest you then you should leave (:
If you are interested: You're welcome and I'm gratefull.
Have a nice day (:
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I open my eye, i was feeling so much pain around my whole body specially on my head. I was on a bed, i can hear some sounds out side the room like there are a lot peoples my eye can't take the light that comes from the room's bulb it felt like i was a new born baby who can't open his eyes properly, oh my gosh! it hurts much so i closed them back and start to figure out how i end up in this place.... A week later i was out from that place feeling like i was new for this whole word i take my 1 feet out of room then stand there for a minute." how i'm i going to stay like this i wish i could sleep on that bed until everything gets more better!" His voice being me back from my thought " hey aren't you coming will you stand there until you remembered something?" oh! he is so kind but he doesn't want to show it..... he take my hand and i take my second step to this new whole world with this guy named... " ᴍɪɴ ʏᴏᴏɴɢɪ" i named it untitled because i want who ever read this give a title to the story. You can put your self in the place of "I" when you read, thank you!!!
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