What is love?
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Last published Sat, Dec 24, 2016
"Hate was such a strong word.
She liked the word "dislike" more. And she disliked many things. -
Over the years, Jackie had become a master of suppressing her own feelings. Muting them. Stuffing them under a trap door and sitting on it, pretending they did not exist. -
Moreover, the emotion she understood the least was love. What was love? Why did love come with such consequences and heartbreak?
Love was an addiction, that was Jackie's conclusion, and therefore she tried her best to keep it at an arms length."
To the outside world, Jackie Morgan was just a girl, and she was just that. Her grades were just above average, she wasn't the swimming team's star athlete and she was by no means popular. Jackie was just Jackie.
Soon to be eighteen, she has lived all her life well within her comfort zone. And as her birthday approaches, the edge of what she feels comfortable with draws only closer.
A story of self-discovery and obstacles. And even maybe some love...
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