me before you ~

"i should of said no. i should have just hurt you and left you again. but i couldn't. i had to save you. because i loved you. and because the me before you was just a hopeless boy with superfluous dreams. and you defined me, rain.

and then, after all the anger you had for me leaving you, you left me. after i didn't let you die that night.

and a new me before you was born.

a me before you left. a me before you died. a me before you fucked it all up. a me before i stopped loving you and started hating you instead.

a me when you were still in that bed with me, your hair spread across my pillows, your eyes like liquid amber as you told me you loved me."

in which ford remembers the one night he spent with his ex-girlfriend, rain, before she left.

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