Questions

Clouded thoughts, heavy feeling and broken heart.
That's all I ever had.
Staring at the four corners of my room.
Thinking over and over.
What could have gone wrong?

As I woke up everyday ,
The pain you left hit me deeper and deeper.
I don't know what to do, seems like I am paralyzed.
I don't know who am I to talk to
When I know no words can help to ease the pain.

I'm always available for you
I never close doors for you
I never thought leaving you
For I choose to love you.

Am I too brave to fight for you?
Am I too numb of getting hurt by taking risk over and over?
Am I not enough for you?
or I'm just too dumb of loving someone like you.

When will I get tired?
When will I choose "I" instead of "you/us"?
Is it worth to take the risk and wait again?
or when If I'm finally gone.
Would you miss me?