You're Worse Than Nicotine
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Last published Thu, Jul 14, 2016
The apricot walls. The bright green curtains. The squeaky plastic chairs and the loud obnoxious voices.
Clouds of dark grey smoke. Bottles of liquid ember. A hunger that cannot be filled. An addiction.
It is hell. But a hell that feels so right.
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