My story
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Ongoing13m
Last published Sat, Aug 17, 2013
This is my story. I have Never told anyone this before because I'm ashamed. Not even my best friend who's been there for me since pre-school. She knows I cut, and she used to, but she doesn't know the story behind it. But lately, I've been feeling like I need to vent it out. Everything is true. I just can't take it anymore.... I can't. I cried so much while writing this.. But I do feel a little bit better now that I got it off my chest. It was haunting me.
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