To The Only Guy I've Ever Loved

These are some letters I wrote to the only boy I've ever fallen for.

I knew when I was writing these that I would never be able to press send. So I decided to post them here, to get this off my chest.

If you're reading this please know that I love you and I would never want to hurt you. We both know I'm better off the way I was, yet you continue to insist. This love is tearing me apart because it feels so unnatural to me. Growing up with a hateful family, surrounded by hateful people all my life has done this to me. I need a way to write out my thoughts without ruining what we have... I don't know what we have, but I want you to know that despite my doubts, I am staying.