The Difference Between "Happy" And "Sad"
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I wake up. I take shower. I put on my clothes . Then I quickly look at the mirror and make sure my smile look's convincing. Perfect! Just like every single day of my life. "Why, you look happy" my mother says.
"Don't I everyday" I respond. "Huh, I guess you do. Such a happy child" she mummers. She has been my mother since the day I was born yet she can't tell that my smile isn't real and my happiness died out 7 years ago when I was 8. She can't tell that I'm depressed, that I'm nearly at the point where I can just.... Just .... Just DIE. But I guess I'm just that good at hiding it huh? Even my best friend doesn't know or my siblings or everyone in school who thinks of me as that fun, weird, friendly, cool girl who everyone adores. Yeah well, that's me short, cute, adorable little Lily. The "Happiest" girl in school.
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