Memories of Love and Actions of Death

I won't say the main characters name, but SHE is a 14 year old girl who has a boyfriend, friends who love her, a place in her life where she can be her (school), but not exactly. Her family is an alright family. She has a Asian mother and father who love her, but sometimes scare her, two little annoying brothers, one 6 and one 4...but she felt so empty... Everyday, she suffers from depression, putting others before her. She blames everything on herself, the feelings of negativity and jealousy , everything is all stored in that tiny heart (that's why her boyfriends never seen her jealous),but some how she still manages to stay perky. But when she's alone in her room, she turns off all the lights and cries alone. She tries to commit suicide, but she can't...there are too many memories she loves deeply. Will she actually die, or will she be able to hold up her little "act" a bit longer?