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My Silence Is My Loudest Cry For Help

Ocean_sparkles99

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Reads 875
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Parts 18
Time 1h 48m

Ocean_sparkles99

andrewhussie blood depression gamzee grandhighblood homestuck karkat kurloz life mituna romance selfharm smoking swearing tavros triggerhazzard trolls

This is a story about Gamzee Makara and how he is just a troll struggling with his family and is labeled clown boy, he smoked to deal with the stress of haters and his lust for his morail but once his morail is taken he is so set back and thinks he likes his friend who was there for him but soon realises it was no longer meant to be and he wasn't supposed to be in love and he shuts down love and drinks his faygo and as he losses hope he gets a younger brother whom wants to be exactly like him. He changes his ways to help bring his younger brother up once he picks his younger brother up he bumps into someone and likes them but finds it hard to express his love since he shut everything out. By the end of the book he has the courage and asks and... His life changes forever.All Rights Reserved

andrewhussie blood depression gamzee grandhighblood homestuck karkat kurloz life mituna romance selfharm smoking swearing tavros triggerhazzard trolls

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