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I Don't Deserve You (A Johnlock Fic)

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Parts 13
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Why did Sherlock do it? Was he depressed? I know I'm not a genius like him, but surely I would have noticed something like that - After all, I've been in love with the worlds only consulting detective since I first laid eyes on him.

After Sherlock commits suicide John is plagued by guilt and regret, he should have noticed if he was depressed, he should have told him he loved him, he just should have done MORE for his best friend.


Set after season two, this doesn't follow season three but may contain spoilersAll Rights Reserved

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To Lose A Loved One (Johnlock) by secretfangirl98

To see life fade from your loved one, to not feel their pulse, breaks you and you can never fix it however hard you try, it can never be fixed for as long as you live. This is the story of the man who had lost the only person he loved but can that person return before he attempts to join them. John and Sherlock never lived a danger free life, but know everything was crashing all around them, and as John pulled himslef from the rubble to move on from his past Sherlock, the only question is can Sherlock do the same or will he fall further than ever before?

Sherlock's secret by oxyy-moron

John has found out about Sherlock's self harm and is left baffled as to how to tell Sherlock about his own secret. *TRIGGER WARNING*

The Best Man by ZoeyTear

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Home Is Where My Heart Is, Only With You. (Johnlock) by MarieLlona

I thought I could kill the pain. How could I be so stupid? The fall was terrifying. The pain was never ending. But it never ends. It remains, and it will always remain. Hidden. Buried. The dark is so cold. It's so empty, I'm empty, and I have nothing to fill it with anymore. "This love has taken its toll on me, and I have no choice, cause I won't say goodbye anymore...."* A Johnlock (and a little Myry) fanfic full of song references, heartbreak, depression, emptiness, emotion, possible death, and love to cure it all. Will they ever be reunited? And can Sherlock prove to John that he's alive, before John commits a crime neither would recover from? *Song reference: Maroon 5 - This Love

Needing You by rabidwolflerker

Johnlock (John/Sherlock) Trigger Warnings: Smut, Minor death, Drug Addiction, PTSD, Non-Consent Sherlock had not been the same since coming back to London. Voices of the dead screaming in his mind. When John finds out, he goes to help his friend, but when Sherlock reveals a huge secret, life as John knows it changes forever. Will he keep the life he has, or give up everything for the broken detective?

Still The Addict by SteinShipping61

Sherlock has never believed in love, nor has he ever needed it. That has all changed now. He loves John Watson. He wants John Watson. It burns like fire, like heroin running through his veins. Not a desire. An addiction. Maybe it's just John. Maybe it's that intoxicating touch and empathetic demeanour. Maybe it's the way he cares so much. What makes Sherlock so addicted to John Watson? The man who's never wanted anyone now needs someone. Is it something he'll be able to handle?

Beside You- A Johnlock Fanfiction (BBC Sherlock) *UNDER HEAVY EDITING* by SherlockedDoors

POST REICHENBACH/JOHNLOCK AU. Two years after watching the love of his life commit suicide, John Watson has faded out. Balancing between sleepless nights or facing the nightmares to see Sherlock’s face again; he knows the game is over. But he never had closure. And so, on a bleak Christmas Eve, he visits Sherlock’s grave and says what he should have said but never could. He hadn’t expected a reply; especially not this one. After two years of using the shadow of his demise as a cover to take down a terror network, Sherlock Holmes is back. With his hand hovering over the call button, he waits near his grave to catch a glimpse of John, unsure of how to come home. But one night, somebody makes it easier. The game is on. (Or should I say, “The gay is on”?) BOOK #1 of the SherlockedDoors Subcanon (shitty name, I know, but alliteration calls.) (NOTE: This does not follow the plot of series 3, it goes off in a totally different direction. Though some things have been recently updated to merge with some posts in John's blog and a couple of teasers, I started writing this AAGGGEESSS before series 3 so the reunion scene is different. Anyhow, if you like Johnlock, you'll probably like this. Enjoy!)

Friends Protect People (Johnlock) by night_vixen2012

It's been 2 years since the Reichenbach fall, and John is a mess. Recent events have motivated Sherlock to reunite with his doctor, but things don't go as he planned when he finds John's dark secrets. Will John be able to forgive Sherlock from hiding from him for all these years? There is also a new consulting detective in town, one that rivals Sherlock in every way, including for John's affections. Then when John is kidnapped Sherlock has got to unravel the case, for his reputation and John's life is at stake. He has to forget what Mycroft said about caring, and needs to realize that being alone won't stop him from burning, just like Moriarty promised I don't own the characters from the bbc show Sherlock But I do own my other consulting detective.

|| Be Her Guard || Sherlock Holmes x Reader by Maple_The_Awesome

Mycroft had always warned Sherlock that feelings can get in the way, especially when it comes to his chosen line of work. Typically, this would be the one thing the two brothers could agree on, however, when you reappear on his doorstep after years of no contact, informing Sherlock that your life's in danger, he's left struggling with both his feelings and what happened in your shared past. How can he possibly pretend such strong emotions have never existed when they still remain?

Will Broken Bodies Lead to Broken Hearts? by ArticaSama

Sherlock often takes cases without informing John. No big deal. However when he takes a case that indirectly involves John and doesn't tell him, then ends up disappearing for days? Not a good sign. How will John react? Will John find the missing Sherlock? What happens if/when the reunite and John gets mad because he took the case without talking to him about it? Will their partnership fall apart? Their friendship? What could have been more? Let us find out! Johnlock Depression Fighting

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To Lose A Loved One (Johnlock)

To see life fade from your loved one, to not feel their pulse, breaks you and you can never fix it however hard you try, it can never be fixed for as long as you live. This is the story of the man who had lost the only person he loved but can that person return before he attempts to join them. John and Sherlock never lived a danger free life, but know everything was crashing all around them, and as John pulled himslef from the rubble to move on from his past Sherlock, the only question is can Sherlock do the same or will he fall further than ever before?