Thoughts in a depressed head
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MatureOngoing11m
Last published Thu, Sep 15, 2016
The title is quite self explanatory don't you think?
If you are depressed, don't read this. Maybe the last chapter, but really don't. This is what I wrote when I was depressed and in suicidal thoughts, and I don't want to make things worse. If you want to talk to me go a head, I am here to listen if you want to.
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