A Depressing Story
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Well how should i start this.
Depression hit me when i was 10 and i felt like i was not needed not wanted or not love.
I only have a few friends and they help me when i need them.
It all happen on a summer day i was at a program and then it hit me there I felt like .... No one loved me and i need help.
I ran across to a friend we got to talking and soon to find out she was here for me until shit happen so in 2015 shit took a turn from depression to suicidal. So here we are now and im telling u all this cause it hurts me to bottle it i need to let it all out
I cant be depressed but its gunna stick with me for my whole lifetime and people fail to understand i fake my happiness and i dont like that so yea this is all real stuff that happen to me
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