Long Way Down

i wanted to drown. i wanted my lungs to slowly collapse filled with water while the air escaped from my body for the very last time. that was the plan, the plan i had for myself. i was at peace with it. until i met someone, and for a second i doubted my plan. i rethink-ed my plan, which I've never done before. she made me doubt that dying was the best option. she made living not the unthinkable. she became my purpose to live.