Somewhere You Can't Find Me

I stepped into the bathroom, glaring at the reflection in the mirror.
My eyes wandered across my features, taking in the disgusting view I found.
A thin, gaunt face with shadowed brown eyes, thin lips, and a large nose. Coffee-colored hair framed it, curled in random directions and reaching the nape of the neck. Gangly arms and legs, no obvious muscles. A slight belly, from lack of excercise.
I wanted to look more like the other guys at my school, with the huge biceps and tanned skin. The ones who had so many friends and who laughed all day.
Why wasn't I good enough for anyone to even want to be my friend?
I reached out to the mirror, running my fingers across the cold surface, pretending to caress my face gently. Lies bubbled in my throat, and I forced them out. They would make me feel better, as they always did.
"Don't forget, Elliot Xiu. You are beautiful."

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Trigger Warning: Anorexia, depression, verbal assault

(boyxboy)