Fucked Up (G-Eazy)
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Last published Sat, Jul 15, 2017
I'm a college student that doesn't really know what I'm doing with my life. I used to have a plan for my life, but now I'm just praying that I make it through the day. Music is the only thing that gives me peace when my anxiety takes over. G-Eazy has a song for everything I feel. I will do everything possible to let him know how much he means to me. Even if it means losing myself in the process.
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